I
bet there are few people like me who had been fooled by God so many times for
this Halloween. Seriously, I felt like it’s a Fool’s Day for me. And I had no
idea why I got pranked again and again. This is not fun at all!
So
what exactly happened? Well, from early October, people started to talk about
Halloween parties and tickets are selling out pretty soon. But most of my
friends are not sure what they will do at that time. So I wasn’t dare to buy
tickets for any party. And all of a sudden, almost all the party tickets are
sold out, and you can imagine, I am the lucky person who has no ticket. What
should I do then? Of course I asked around, and just when my friend found me
ticket, I realized I made a serious mistake. I went to renew my passport and I could
only get it back until Nov 12. And god bless me, I have no other governmental
ID, no National ID (I left it in Taiwan for fear that I lose it here), no
driving license( How I wish I know how to drive!), no BC ID (because I haven’t
got my MSP), so I only had a photocopy of my passport, my UBC student card and
an useless International Student Card.
In
Canada, if you are under 19, you can’t get a drink in bars or liquor store, not
to mention getting into a club. So I couldn’t even go to any place with my
friends, except house parties. And my friend invited me to one, but told me a
day before Halloween that it got cancelled. Well then, I thought I would chill
and just go to a UBC Improv show, but then my friend who was supposed to go
with me had urgency back home to deal with. Ok, fine, I posted on the exchange
student group to ask if there is a house party I can go. And people did tell
me. But the problem is I don’t the people who passed me the info. It felt
awkward to go to a house party without knowing anyone. Well, you might say, you
can bring your friends.
Yes,
I did try. But my roommates and their friends want to go to downtown first. And
we randomly picked a bar in Gastown, which sucks. So I wanted to go to the
house parties that people told me. But it was already past midnight and it
seemed super awkward to walk in at that time, not to mention we weren’t really
sure where the places were and it was chilly outside. Oh, I almost forgot to
mention, at the same time, my cellphone wasn’t working well, I couldn’t even text
people. (I hate BELL!!)
So
we just head back. Such a nice trip back and forth without really doing
anything! It really wasn’t anyone’s fault. But I do hope I can be more certain
and more direct about what I want. If I was clear that I wanted to go to house
parties first, then things might be different. However, it was really hard to
decide what to do when I had so little information and I was afraid that they
would be disappointed if those parties are not good. I guess I just need to be
a bit more selfish. Why do I need to care so much about how others feel and
sacrifice what I want?
You
might wonder why I was so desperate to go to parties. Well, let me be clear, I am
not a party animal, or you should say that I seldom go to parties. Every time
people invite me to go clubbing, it happened to be the time I was too tired or
needed to work the day after, so I had to say no. Or it might be that I wasn’t
in the mood to party with people I wasn’t that fond of. And people who I get
along with usually don’t party that much, so I don’t really get invited to
parties. I am just not belonged to any group which parties.
But
I do want to go crazy once in a while. And Halloween seemed to be a very
justified time and reason to do so. I hate to admit that I haven’t been to any
club in Vancouver, or another embarrassing fact that I have never been drunk.
These are just like the things I want to have experience, like once, and it’s
enough. My question is: when do I get the chance? All I yearn for is to
experience and then I can proudly say, “I have lived.”
I
guess the worst part of all the things is that I kept being failed. Every time I
tried to plan something, it turned out to be different from what I expected. It’s
fine when it happened once or twice, but when it continued to happen, I got
really pissed. Being a Capricorn, I tend to make plans for everything, so I felt
even more disappointed when I can’t control what will happen.
I
know I still have time, still have a lot of chance, but I just don’t want to
wait. My another personality is being impatient. So yeah, that’s my Halloween. Nothing
tragic, but just sucks. (Oh, did I tell you that I even made the tiara myself,
which took me more than 2 hours? )
But to clarify, the day before Halloween
was good, it’s the day of Halloween that sucks. I still enjoyed carving
pumpkins and went to a haunted houseJ
well, here I am, to give you my hug and kiss. (though I cannot skype with you just in time)
回覆刪除I am never a party animal as you already know; however when I was a freshman, I craved to grow up (?) that I went to clubbing, and learn how to wear party makeup. At last, I still did not become a party animal (LOL, book worm nature can never change) but I did find it interesting (only if you drink adequately, it's not fun to be drunk)
You don't have to justify yourself for having fun. Try everything before it's too late.
My beloved little girl, you don't have to make a neat schedule and follow it. (well, I guess as a super control-freak virgo, I do not have right to say that)
And one more thing: You need to be more be careful la!!!! （小笨蛋）